Pages

Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts

November 23, 2008

Fading.

 *+*+*+*+*


 

For the longest time, I was able to see a rainbow again. :) A feeling of nostalgia hit me that day. I cannot recall at what exact date was I last able to witness this kind of 7-colored wonderful sight; with as much as I wonder since when did I started feeling good whenever seeing nature's beauty. I guess living in a city as mine, with the pollution and all, makes me appreciate rare sceneries easier.

*+*+*+*+*

Nostalgia. No, it's more of a de ja vu - I'm going back to Plaridel. Yeah, and I'm going back to Sir Miguel! 

The same day (with the rainbow), schedule for the first rotation of duties were realesed. And that provides a tangible proof that yes, it's the time of schooling again alloted for clinical uniforms, real patients, NCPs, etc. Plus sleepless nights, I almost forgot.
7 PM to 7 AM , graveyard for the first two weeks of duty.

*+*+*+*+*

I hate being in the place where I seem to be an enemy to one. I know I'm not Miss Congeniality, but I also do know I'm not being too difficult to be not friends with someone, eventually if time permits. 

But hell, I think I just screwed myself in that position now. And I hate it. I hate to avoid a person because I know were not in good terms. I hate it more that I'm not in good terms with a person I actually haven't been in good terms with YET. No relationship whatever established yet and the reality that it was doomed spurt out suprisingly... All because of that word 'fairly'. 

I won't go in details with the story, but it's all about checking the quiz, corrections and stuff. (I hope you'd already pictured it out.) Literally and figuratively, 'fairly' was the answer.

It gave me another reason to hate being in the pilot class - GC people. Can't they just settle with what they got? Because once and for all, that's all they are, all they've got, the sheer reflection of how far they know. Pathetic.

*+*+*+*+*

And I continue to be pissed with this person on the last post. The one getting into my nerves with his gradually peeling of skin, exposing the true him. Like i wish I was deaf whenever he speaks! Because he spaeaks all about... all about BOASTING. 

Brag, I think that's all his mouth can say. With all his lines like 'Based on stock knowledge, Sir' and 'Classmates, 'wag kayong magpaka-toxic, ako nga 'di nag-aaral e.' (whick I guess were all unnecessary), I begin to loathe him more. *sigh*

I hate feeling hate for people who are actually affecting me indirectly, I mean like unconsciously, they do things to make me hate them. Because if you'll think about it, it's my decision whether I'll allow myself to be affected by their actions. But that doesn't acquit them. I still blame them for making me abhor them... they pushed me. 

*+*+*+*+*
                                                                                                                         

October 15, 2008

What I Cannot Rant, I Sing





1. NOW (MYMP)
There’s a reason
Why we love each other now
And we don’t know if this is forever.

There’s a reason
Why we are together now
And we don’t care if it’s not forever now.

2. ON THE SIDE OF ME (CORRINNE MAY)

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me, on the side of me...
3. THE LITTLE THINGS (COLBIE CAILLAT)

So back up back up take another chance
Don’t you mess up mess up I don’t wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don’t you say that I’d be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If im better off better off, with out you boy
4. I'M YOURS (JASON MRAZ)

And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
5. SUPERHUMAN (CHRIS BROWN)
You changed my whole life
Don't know what you're doing
To me, with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman
6. THE MAN WHO CAN'T BE MOVED (THE SCRIPT)
Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
7. NO AIR (JORDIN SPARKS feat. CHRIS BROWN)
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
8. I WANNA LOVE YOU (THE MAINE)
I wanna love you, but you already know...
9. STAY CLOSE DON'T GO (SECONDHAND SERENADE)
If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own,
Don't leave me tonight,
This heart of stone will sing till it dies
If you leave me tonight.
10. GOOD ENOUGH (SARAH MCLACHLAN)
Don't tell me I haven't been good to you
Don't tell me I have never been there for you
Don't tell me why
Nothing is good enough
11. INVISIBLE WAR (SITTI NAVARRO)
In this invisible war, seems we’re waging an invisible war
Every day I seem to lose you more
In this invisible war It wounded deeply the scar is here to stay
12. I'M MISSING YOU (MEJA)
I'm missing you
And it's making me blue, yeah
I'm missing you
But what can I do
Thousand miles away, from you
13. BUSES AND TRAINS (BACHELOR GIRL)
So I walked under a bus
I got hit by a train
Keep falling in love
Which is kinda the same
Ive sunk out at sea
Crashed my car, gone insane
And it felt so good
I want to do it again
14. WONDERWALL (OASIS)
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
15. CANNONBALL (DAMIEN RICE)
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
16. GOD MUST HAVE SPENT A LITTLE MORE TIME ON YOU (N'SYNC)
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
17. MAKE ME WHOLE (KYLA)
Coz your eyes are the windows to heaven
Your smile could heal a million souls
Your love completes my existence
You're the other half that makes me whole
You're the only other half that makes me whole
18. DON'T KNOW WHY (NORAH JONES)
My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever
19. MISS INVISIBLE (MARIE DIGBY)
Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name
20. I thought she knew my world revolved around her
My love light burned for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame, only myself to blame
I should've known, I should've known
21. 14 (SILENT SANCTUARY)
Ikaw lang ang nais kong makasama
Wala na kong gusto pang balikan
Kahit ako'y papiliin ikaw ay umasang
Gusto kong makapiling

**Thanks to www.lyricsmode.com for the lyrics. :)) and Imeem as well for the songs and player.

October 14, 2008

Play It Right

what was said, had been said..
though i tried to compromise..
what was lost, had been lost..
though i tried to get it back..
what was gone, had been gone..
though i asked for a chance..
what was played cannot be rewinded..
now all i can do,
is jive with what i’m hearing..
enjoy every lyrics and tune..
until it stops,
and maybe then,,
i could play it again..
play it right this time..

If I Just Have Known

if i knew it would take long to hold you again,,
i should have not lost my grip even for a while..
if i knew it would take long to see you again,,
i should have stared and have not blinked at all..
if i knew it would take long to talk to you again..
i should have uttered everything and have not hold back a little..
if only i knew all these things,,
i wouldn’t be bothered with all these memories..
but i’m not losing hope..
i’ll still be waiting for that day..
the day when all my "i should have"s,,
will turn to "i had"s..

Lost

Posted: January 15, 2007

i know i had been full of shortcomings
about the thing between us..

i know i took you for granted
most of the time..

i know i haven’t showed you enough
to mean what i’m saying..

i know i was just good with words..

i have proved nothing..

i love you but i didn’t
see all your worth until your gone..

now i’m suffering the whack
of this boomerang..

‘coz it’s striking me twice..

the simple scratch is now bleeding..

the simple disease is now close to dying..

but inspite all d pain, i tried to hold on..

now i’m not sure if i’ll still tighten my grip
or just loosen it up and let go..

i want to grasp..
but you’re giving me reasons to give in..

My Emo Days

HAHA. Found my old posts in my Fster Blog. How I wish I still write the same way as then.

Pigilan

walang magawa..

tinatawag na naman para mag-isip..

muli raw alalahanin mgapangyayari..

na pilit ng pininid sa kahon..

upang sugat na dulot ay unti-unti ng maghilom..

ngunit dahil walang magawa..

muling sinagot ang tawag..

kandado’y nabuksan at sugat muling nagdugo..

hindi mabura, hindi mawaglit,

hindi maalis, hindi mabalewala..

hindi matularan ang nagagawa mo..!

sana’y turuan mo ko..

makalimot ng ganoong kadali..

piga na ang sarili sa pagsusumiksik,

sa mundo ng kaligayahan..

ngunit tila ayaw ako papasukin,

2wing nkikita nila, aking dibdib na puno ng iyong mukha..

hindi mapigilan sagutin ang tawag ng iyong alaala..

ano mang pilit, ilan pang subok..

Reminisce

A poem again i made way back a year ago [April 16, 2007 to be exact]. During my own days of emptiness.

Wala Na

san man muling liparin ng gunita..

isang bagay ang nakataga na..

wala na ang damdamin..

damdaming ilang ulit naghintay at nasaktan..

nang una’y inakala, ito’y di magbabago..

ngunit kaya pala ng sobrang sakit na ito’y unti-unting maglaho..

inakalang makakaya lahat,

subalit natutunang pagpapalaya’y higit ang buhat..

anumang nararamdamang pag-asa noon,

dulot na lamang ng mga nakasanayang araw..

inakalang buhay pang damdamin,

dala na lamang ng alaalang ayaw limutin..

ngayo’y naliwanagan na, damdamin sa isa’t-isa’y

pareho pa rin - parehong wala na..

ang masakit na katotohanan lang..

pag-ibig niya’y naglaho sabay sa panahong ito’y pinaglalaban ko pa..