Letter #2. A Letter to Someone You Miss

Dear G aka Inspi,

First, yes, I miss you that's why you're getting this letter. :) Our closeness maybe very 'text-message type' but we know it's not limited there. It may not also be as constant as a best-friend type but we know that it is enough. And we know that despite long days/weeks of absence, we still care for each other.

Second, I want to thank you for trusting me and not doubting my intentions of continuing my connection with you despite the fact that your brother's and mine already did. When I ask you how are you, you answer me correctly and tell things about YOU and not about your brother that's why I like you so much. :)

I think I have somehow seen you grow from those good old days in your home until now that you are telling me stories about this guy (which I seriously need some update on). You were boyish then with all the kick-ass guitar playing, table tennis, and many more skills that you have. And now look at you! I honestly don't know what to say but to be safe, welcome to 'cupid's arrow-stricken' club. :) And you know you can always confide with me about these matters, just in case you need one.

We have a wayyy overdue movie date which I hope will push through some time this month when both of our schedule permits. It's Valentine's, how timely. :)

But let me go back to the very reason I'm writing you today - that is to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :) Stay the same little sister for me (coz I don't have one) and may God bless you with all the good things you deserve and those that you're hoping for as well. I know he will because you've been a good girl, friend, sister and daughter! Again, I miss you and I love you. I hope to see you the soonest time possible.

♥ From someone who misses you,

Ate E.

Letter #1. A Letter to the Future You

Dear Future Me,

Of course I know you're still alive, most probably somewhere outside the Phils. And I know you have become what you wanted to be even though at the time you are writing this, you have no clear plans on how you will get there. But I strongly believe it's in the medical field. You don't wanna go wasting the license you have deservingly earned for 4 years if you ain't gonna pursue it anyways. I just know. You happen to have everything on your list of 'to buys' that you've written when you got your first job. I'm so proud of you. You are also able to cross out about 75% of your bucket list which again at the moment you're writing this, has only 3 items crossed out. You will still find it amazing every time you look back. That's so nice of you.

But there are more to these that makes you happy you can burp rainbows; and that's because finally you will also have you heart at peace. Not that it's full of hatred and stuff but because it hasn't felt high for quite some time. I know you'll have that someone special beside you right now. Like everything else you have, you don't know how it happened; all you know is it has taken him long before getting to you. Maybe he's someone new, someone that will 'sweep you off your feet' cheesy-ness or maybe someone from your childhood that you happen to re-connect again after a reunion. Whoever it may be, I wish you all the best. You may not have too many experiences with them but I know you will know better this time - to not give it all. to not let him be your everything. Because when all else fails, that will help you avoid going through the same 'picking-up-the-shattered-me' drama. But I feel, whoever it may be, he's going to be worth it.

Your Proud Present,

E.

Insensitive

i know what is wrong with me, and yet i still do it.. many people say i am insensitive.. some say i'm a rock who cant feel.. nothing positive you can get from me.. argh!

-- from his FB account

Dear Ex-Term,

(Just allow me to use 'term' for this. :) Wala namang ibang term 'di ba? Wala sanang magalit.)

Matagal ko na nabasa yung part ng profile mo na yan, pero ngayon lang ako magco-comment. Kung tama ako, ako yata unang naglakas loob sabihin sa'yo na may pagka-manhid ka. Siguro sa isa sa madaming beses na nagka-tampuhan tayo ni-reason out ko na ang insensitive mo kasi kaya ka nakakatampo. Lumipas ang panahon, kahit papa'no nakita ko namang nag-improve ka. Hanggang sa magka-hiwalay na tayo, at ayun, hindi ko na alam anong nangyari sa parte ng katauhan mo na manhid.

Pero nang nabasa ko 'to, nalaman ko, dala dala mo pa din ang parehong problema na meron ka dati. Ang kaibahan lang, ngayon alam mo na na manhid ka, at hindi mo alam kung bakit kahit alam mong manhid ka, hindi mo ito magawang maitama.

Sa pananaw ko, hindi na talaga yun mababago. Pwedeng mabawasan pero hindi na mawawala. Ngayon napa-isip ako kung sa tingin ko nag-improve ka nga talaga o dahil nasanay na ako kaya pakiramdam ko nag-improve ka? Iniisip ko na siguro natutunan ko na lang tanggapin sa sarili ko na sadyang gano'n ang taong mahal ko (minahal sa tense ngayon), at dahil mahal mo, handa kang tanggapin kung ano siya at kung ano ang hindi siya.

Hindi ko kilala yung bago mong girlfriend ngayon, pero kilala ko sya sa pangalan at mukha (nakita ko sa picture mo.) Wala ako sa posisyon na sabihin sa kanyang gawin na lang din kung ano ang ginawa ko. Bahala na lang siya, bahala na lang kayo. Basta ayusin ninyo kung anong meron kayo. Ang gulo mo kasi, minsan sobrang inlab ka sa mga status mo, minsan nanlulumo naman sa kalungkutan.

"nothing positive you can get from me" -> At anong drama 'to?

With all honesty, there are lots of admirable things in you. You can turn the silent crowd to a laughing one. You can befriend people you just have met for a minute or so. You're smart. You're spontaneous. You're a good son and brother. You're a sweet boyfriend (I should know). You're God-fearing. You have the weirdest uneven smile! Haha. And the list can go on, so don't let others tell you otherwise. You're enough just by being you.

P.S. Hindi naman siguro masamang maging stay-connected pa din with old friends kahit may bagong set of friends na di ba? 'Wag mo naman kami kalimutan, may B26 family ka pa din. Miss ka na ng mga yun.

Your Concerned Ex-Term,
Thel