Though my peers still look up at me, like *whoa*, like someone who's ready with an answer to quizzes and exams (which is, of course, not true), I still feel one big jerk. :D
I dunno, maybe I'm not happy with the way my grades are going. Well it's my fault, i know. I just can't find that spark again to study like real STUDY.
And oh! Plus the fact that I think I have better posts then. See those previous posts (most are poems) they were my works back during first year college. It's actually not the best, but it still amazes me whenever I try reading the 'me' before.
And here's one of them:
May 19, 2007
ikaw ay marupok..
pinarupok ng mga anay
na unti-unting nilalamon
ang iyong buong kaluluwa..
hindi mo ramdam..
dahil sa mga kasinungalingang
itinurok sa’yo ng mga anay..
ika’y paralisado na..
hindi ramdam ang sakit ng katotohanan..
kalahating ikaw ay libing na..
tinabunan ng pangakong walang pinatunguhan..
kumunoy ng dikta’y hinihigop ka,,
diktang ‘di mo alam kung para saan..
hinayaan mong turukan ka nila ng paulit-ulit..
ngayo’y nahihirapan kang makaramdam..
turok - hindi lunas sa sakit..
bagkus isang turok na pampamanhid..
pampamanhid sa nasyonalismo - sa pag-ibig sa bayan..
ika’y nilalang na may isip..
sa bawat desisyon, may pinagpipilian..
kung pinili mong maturukan
para sa panandaliang kaligayahan,
ihanda mo ang iyong sariling
tuluyang hindi makaramdam..
at tuluyang lamunin ng kumunoy
at ng mga anay…
Anay na kahit bilyon pa sa bilang
ay maliliit pa rin upang hindi
makayanang mapuksa ng sama-sama..
Hmmmkey. Yes, I'm sort of patriotic. HAHA. I strongly believe, nobody will love somebody, unless he/she learns to love his own. I dunno what went to my mind to have the guts to write such. I think that was election days then, not so sure.
OK. OK. Guess that's all for now. Gotta go and find the suppressed writter in me and try to make meaningful posts again. :)
BTW, that's me on the photo, my edit as well. :)