October 1, 2009

Overheard.

Isang araw sa National Library, nag-uusap si Cynthia at Shiela...
*Kunwari busy ako sa pag-kopya ng ilang bagay para sa Filipinas Dentro De Cien Anos, pero nakikinig naman pala*
NOTE: These are already paraphrased.

C: Alam mo, yung 3 years na boyfriend ko nga, akala ko siya na talaga.
S: Oh talaga?
C: Oo. Kasi talagang lahat ng qualities na hahanapin mo sa lalaki, alam mo yun, nasa kanya na.
S: E bakit kayo naghiwalay?
C: Siguro kasi ano... alam mo yung feeling na nag-doubt ka na kung love pa ba talaga yung nararamdaman mo para sa kanya?
S: O eh bakit naman?
C: Kasi parang na-used to ka na sa feeling ng 'love'. Na sa 3 years na yun, constant na ganun yung nararamdaman mo para sa kanya kaya nung nagtagal na, hindi mo na alam kung love pa ba talaga yun. Hanggang nung nawala siya, dun mo mari-realize na, ah mahal ko pa pala siya.
***
I thought pouring things out through writing was enough for me. Until that night of the 29th, I was able to tell you and ask you things that have been bugging me for long; not that personal though, but still it was like we were talking casually, just you and I. :]

At last, I was able to tell you that I miss you. :]
I also found courage that night to finally ask why the 'new relationship' has been so sudden. I was even able to comment on the 'sincerity' of that relationship based on my opinion. There's still a hanging question though. :] I guess I'm OK with how things are going now; I can now joke on things I've been avoiding before. But on top of that, I can now talk to you (and even joke) about my feelings.

>> I wanna LET GO and know that I'LL BE ALRIGHT, ALRIGHT. -- Car Crash, Matt Nathanson

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