Reminisce

A poem again i made way back a year ago [April 16, 2007 to be exact]. During my own days of emptiness.

Wala Na

san man muling liparin ng gunita..

isang bagay ang nakataga na..

wala na ang damdamin..

damdaming ilang ulit naghintay at nasaktan..

nang una’y inakala, ito’y di magbabago..

ngunit kaya pala ng sobrang sakit na ito’y unti-unting maglaho..

inakalang makakaya lahat,

subalit natutunang pagpapalaya’y higit ang buhat..

anumang nararamdamang pag-asa noon,

dulot na lamang ng mga nakasanayang araw..

inakalang buhay pang damdamin,

dala na lamang ng alaalang ayaw limutin..

ngayo’y naliwanagan na, damdamin sa isa’t-isa’y

pareho pa rin - parehong wala na..

ang masakit na katotohanan lang..

pag-ibig niya’y naglaho sabay sa panahong ito’y pinaglalaban ko pa..

When It Hurts Like Hell

'to be the cause of other person's feeling of failure

because of your own failure...'

the feeling I hate the most.

when all efforts unseen.

all hardworks not appreciated.

and above all, when you become other person's source of failure.

you're lone failure becomes a load to bear by

people who had done nothing but to support you.

and you, with all your efforts and much hardwork,

gave nothing back but heartache,

again to these people who supported you all the way -

gave you everything you needed.

money, food, whatevers!

gave you all their understanding

with all incomprehensible reasons of staying to late.

geve you everything and everything...

it just hurts like hell...

is it that hard to give people chances?

who are you?

you're not God.

please remember that...